There's Happiness Somewhere...

womanfourwoman:

if suddenly you feel the urge to cry come upon you seemingly from nowhere, please, recognize that it is not from nowhere. it is from a somewhere where you forgot to mourn properly. a place only your body can remember. let these tears come. let your body mourn. let your body feel her loss. even if you cannot understand her (who can?) it is important to let your body have this. when the crying is over feed your body something special and be gentle with her. bless

wolf-of-wall-st:

itszombiebear:

thepoorinspirit-extras:

womaninpearls:

As I get older I’m finding that a lot of the “intellectuals” I used to admire are actually just condescending and pretentious. And also realizing how much more important it is to be present, considerate, and empathetic because nobody really knows what they’re talking about and anyone who claims to know everything about anything is feeding you bs.

“When I was young, I admired clever people. Now that I am old, I admire kind people.”

- Rabbi Abraham Joshua Heschel

I am also realizing that actual intellectuals make their subjects easy to understand, and faux intelectuals will attempt to baffle.

“If you can’t explain it to a six year old, you don’t understand it yourself.”

- Albert Einstein

I suddenly thought of the movie Harvey, (I definitely recommend watching it!)

“Years ago my mother used to say to me, she’d say, ‘In this world, Elwood, you must be oh so smart or oh so pleasant.’ Well, for years I was smart. I recommend pleasant.”
~ Harvey (1950)

In my life, I’ve attracted people who would get mad at me when I need to to do what is most important for me.
I’ve felt like some special toy to someone who would really enjoy me, but when I start malfunctioning or do something they don’t like, they get angry at me and never know how to take care of me or make better of my problems.

For example, I have depression currently and a long time ago, when I was still very close with my bestie, I was going through such a tough time that I needed time for myself, I felt that was what I needed most, and my bestie didn’t want me to do that, and instead got so angry with me that she tried to kill herself in front of me.

I’M NOT KIDDING!

We were walking together on the sidewalk and I told her I wanted some time alone and she got really angry with me and she argued, “No, you need to talk it out and tell me what’s wrong!” The problem with that suggestion is that—I ALREADY DID, MANY TIMES, and she couldn’t provide the comfort I needed. She didn’t understand the depth of my pain. It’s like repeating a problem to a child over and over again and never receiving the correct answer. It’s like asking what the color of the sky is and getting the answer skipadeedoo! over and over. It doesn’t even correlate!!

She has even told me that when I’m sad, it’s a downer. Well, yeah, of course, it is! And I’m not supposed to happy or cheerful all the time!

I’m so tired of attracting people in my life who love me at my best, but when I’m at my worse, they get angry at me, ignore me, or never seem to understand me.

I’ve NEVER had a real-life friend who even asked me if everything was alright? I’ve NEVER had a friend that would console me.

One friend, a long time ago, stopped being my friend because she said I wasn’t funny anymore, but at the time, I was dealing with an emotional problem. She didn’t even ask if I was alright when I was sad. How am I supposed to be funny when something was bothering me deeply?

zodiac–signs:

uranus in the first- you long to be as unique and different as possible. no one can dictate who you are or what you will become
uranus in the second- you’re well aware that your material possessions don’t define your self-worth, anti-capitalism, anti-materialism
uranus in the third- you’ve got an inventive way of thinking, a curious spirit and an eccentric quality about the way your mind functions 
uranus in the fourth- you feel like you’re the black sheep in your family, you can’t relate to them or they seem like strangers to you
uranus in the fifth- you’re creative in new, progressive ways, & your hobbies and interests are often ‘strange’ as happiness comes from unusual sources
uranus in the sixth- you constantly question if things are being done in the most efficient way possible. you revolutionize work methods and rules
uranus in the seventh- you don’t attract and neither are attracted to ‘normal’ people, you want to be fascinated by the people whom you’re with
uranus in the eighth- anything underneath the surface fascinates you, esp if it’s related to the human mind, you’re on your way to uncover it all
uranus in the ninth- you’re against traditional or conservative values and old-fashioned worldviews, you’re on the ultimate quest for truth 
uranus in the tenth- you are or wish you were self-employed. following a traditional vocational path makes no sense to you
uranus in the eleventh- you have tons of “friends”, but only a few know the real you, you don’t trust easily. meeting people online feels more comfortable
uranus in the twelfth- you feel like you’re different through and through so you constantly try to ‘fix’ your lonely mind, but the true revolution consists in accepting yourself

anotherdayforchaosfay:

mamalizmas:

dreamlightasafeather:

IF YOU NEED TO CALL 911 BUT ARE SCARED TO BECAUSE OF SOMEONE IN THE ROOM, dial and ask for a pepperoni pizza. They will ask if you know you’re calling 911. Say yes, and continue pretending you’re making an order. They’ll ask if there’s someone in the room.

You can ask how long it will take for the pizza to get to you, and they will tell you how far away a dispatcher is.

Here is an example video

Reblog to literally save a life

I’ve done this.  I’m alive because of this. 

My flat-mate’s date for the night was almost as drunk as her.  She had passed out in her room and locked the door.  He refused to leave because he wanted to have sex.  He also demanded food because he was dealing with “whiskey dick”.  He didn’t like the lack of food in the fridge.  I called 911, did the stuff stated above, and he was getting PISSED about how long the “order” was taking.  He took my phone, demanded they “hurry the fuck up”.  Police arrived two minutes later, arrested him, and helped me file a police report.  Pressing charges wasn’t necessary because he had warrants on him from THREE different states for the very thing he planned to do to me.  Several months after this happened one of the officers informed me he was charged with two felonies because he crossed stay lines, and will be serving no less than 35 years in prison.  The officer ripped into my flat-mate about her bringing home complete strangers, while drunk, knowing full well this shit could happen. 

This was 14 years ago.  

Do the pizza order, do it as calmly as you can.  The dispatcher I spoke to said things like this:

“If he’s drunk say you want mushrooms.”  I said I want extra mushrooms.

“If he’s threatening you with sexual assault say you want onions.”  I said I want onions.

She went like this with different toppings and sauces for a description of him, like pineapple if he’s blonde, black olives if he’s tall, extra large if he’s tall, etc.

They’ve heard this sort of coded call before.  They’re trained for it.  They will understand what you’re saying.  Order the pizza.